Catching this Fish

Wanting to be wanted is the most desperate feeling to me these days.  My friends all tell me I am a catch.  I am one picky fish that's for sure and you are going to have to bait the hook with something pretty fabulous to get me to take a real bite at it.

On paper I haven't been single all that long so I may be what someone would call high risk in the dating game.  No one who wants anything serious wants to be someone's rebound.

Here's the thing I really don't know how serious I can even be.  I have a really really really full life between working full time, college full time and three kids.  I don't know how emotionally invested I can afford to become with someone. So I can see where that makes me a risky investment.

Isn't any relationship a risky investment though?  Here we are two people hoping beyond hope that we can make a real connection with another person.  A lasting connection if you will.  It takes a daily commitment to wake up and stay invested in a relationship with someone.  In other words it takes an investment of your time.  Time is not something that I have a lot of left over.


So despite wanting to be wanted and wanting someone special, I understand that the thing that a relationship depends the most on is not something I have left over to give.  So while I may be a great catch, I don't think it's fair for me to ask someone to bait a hook and throw it in my pond, unless the fisherman can understand the value of my limited time, see the beauty of this fish and be willing to invest in us.

Wanting someone to look at me the way he looks at this fish :)