I hate you! Your the worst mom ever! I never wanted you!
Those are the little phrases my 11 year old decided to use against me today. I remember the first time she said them, she was five and was being discipled for poor behavior. I was left feeling raw, hurt and my heart was bleeding. Here I was trying to guide and protect my greatest of love objects and she hated me. I cried for an hour that day.
Not today though.
She's growing up and trying to find her way and place in this big scary world. She is going to lash out because she's upset and her hormones are taking over. Little things, like me buying the right clothes one day, will be the wrong the next. She will be unsatisfied with my choices as her parent. She will feel distant from me and some days it all she will do is cry.
Through all of those times, I will stand here firm in knowing that I know she loves me. I know she knows that I love her. That I make parenting choices based on her needs and my desire to protect her and do what is right for her. I know I am not a bad mom and she does too.
There will be more days like today to come but one day she will be grown and look back and say.............Mom I never hated you. I will wrap her in my arms and say I know sweetheart.
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