Multiplied by the years to come........

We have moved into an area that we are friends and civil and because of this we can talk openly and honestly about the division of our assets.  This being said it makes me reflect on the value that I have brought into this relationship and what valuables I will be walking away with.

We have accumulated many things together, two cars, a house filled with everything you need to have to meet the needs of a family and various objects that hold monetary value as well.  I am not here to talk about the materialistic things that we are splitting.  I am wanting to fill you in on the things that we are walking away with that hold no monetary value.

Our children, we walk away with the lives of our children being added to us.

Pickle came via a very long and hard delivery in April of 2003.  She was perfect and exactly what I prayed for.  A little girl that looked like her daddy :)  She is brilliant and stubborn just like me and her father.  While beautiful on the outside, her inner beauty shines so much brighter.  She will be a better woman than I can ever hope to be.

Our Sonshine came in August 2005, an easy delivery but with almost devastating results.  His cord was wrapped twice around his neck.  He was born beyond the color blue.  We are thankful he is with us.  His love for other people and sensitivity to the spirit of God is beyond his years.  He is handsome to a fault and this is one M
omma that will use a stick to beat the girls off of him!

Peanut was an anniversary gift I didn't get to hold until nine months later in October 2006 ;) She has been the most wonderful surprise that two parents could ask for.  She is spunky with too much sass.  She is nurturing and affectionate.  Her passion for life is contagious!

Our precious baby Jack, is loved just as much but his/her journey was to be lived out in heaven beginning in March of 2010.  Never has my heart been so burdened and for so long.  I was angry at myself, David, God and the world for at minimum a year after our lose.  I dream of holding my baby often and long for the day that we are reunited again.

I am thankful to David for giving me the gift of motherhood.  While he may have stayed gone when they were little and failed to change diapers as much as I and my brother did, he gave me four amazing children.  I wouldn't have them without him.  While we work out the details of what monetary assets we divide between us, we both know that we will never have to split the love and adoration of our children.  Our children's time may split between us but our love for them will only ever be multiplied by the years to come.